hmmms. played against scgs but lost 0-5... hahas losing to them was kinda expected but not exactly 0-5... we could have won afew matches. didnt manage to qualify for the nationals... ohwells.

went to rgs to support the b div today... they played against crescent, won 4-1. agnes lost her match... ah wells nvm nvm... geor and sarah ho's match was DAMN NICE. kaoo. i'm so in awe.

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so i'll never ever be a doubles player. apparently i'm too soft. right. and i definately wouldnt be soft if someone hadnt insisted that i was meant to be in singles etc and never let me play with huiyan. now my confidence is gone. no more self-confidence. no more morale. compared to the rest i'm pathetic. nothing. i was really hurt. i know you didnt mean to but you shldnt have told me what he said. it only made the little sliver of confidence in myself lessen. now i dont know what to do. i'm definately not going to play singles nxt yr, that's for sure. he's got better players. so then, if i wont be playing singles, and i'm not fit and UNSUITABLE for playing doubles, i'm just a worthless player meant for nothing.