i love it when friends are happy
i hate it when friends are mad
especially at each other, it really pains me to see the conflict.
but what assures me is that after the waves are done crashing on the beach,
our friendships will be even stronger than before.
i just hope that the waves are done crashing about soon, real soon.
everyone has their part to play, and it all boils down to communication and FORGIVENESS.
indeed, forgiveness is the key to the solution.
but i realised that not everyone clearly understands that true meaning of forgiveness.
i guess its about setting aside the offences that we've taken without any feelings of bitterness.
forgive and forget. that's the key to lasting friendships.
aiyah. i really want this to end soon.

anyway this week has been relatively good, today especially.
although i woke up at 8.10am and school started at 8.30am..
i jumped out of bed and flew out of the house.
my dad prayed for clear traffic so that i could get to school on time and incredibly, the traffic cleared half way to school.
it was really remarkable because normally there'd be relatively heavy traffic.
but anyway i reached school right on time, quite literally.
my sprint from the school gate to where my class was lining up would've won an olympic gold.
and i reached my class right when the last line of the last song to assemble was played.
whoo, talk about being HENG. haha!

training was rather slack..
us girls were supposed to do our own PT but ended up slacking and playing around at the fitness corner.
anyway, i really enjoyed my time talking with jingfang...
now we have a favourite spot! which is everyone else's favourite spot too i think.
haha but whatever.
dinner with rai and jf at kovan after that..
had a great time chatting and joking around.
its times like these that i really appreciate, because the stresses of life just disappear from my conscience, albeit just for a short time.

after talking to jf, i'm come to a decision.
i will do my utmost BEST for my promos.
my motivation?
my friends.
it'll be because of them that i will strive to succeed in my studies.
because.
i want to be promoted with them.
i want to graduate with them.
i want to travel with them.
i want to be happy with them.

one year just isn't enough time with you all.
leaving you all after all the joy and laughter we've shared would be the last thing i want to happen.
and i really really mean it.
i love you guys. (:

today was a great milestone in my life.
why?
because i finally found out my blood type!
after going through 17 years of ignorance.
yeah, i was one of those poor lost souls who, funnily, had no record of my blood type.
but thanks to mryong's wanting of our blood groups, i had the opportunity to test my blood!

while waiting for my aunt (who's a gynae) to get me, some stupid kid puked on the floor right next to me.
and stunk up the whooole clinic.
thank God i didn't gag.
anyway, i opted for the finger prick (i was not going to allow the nurse to shove a needle up my arm).
turns out that it wasn't painful at all!
okay maybe a teeeeeeeeeny bit only, but i didn't even realise that my finger was pricked until the nurse started scrapping my finger to collect the blood.
she used some device that resembled the ones used to pierce ears only that it felt like a few little needles.
the cut was really small, but amazingly a lot of blood came out!
the plaster that the nurse gave me was soaked through by the time i walked out of the hospital.
WHOAA.
and when i got home to change the plaster, my finger was still bleeding.
talk about a deep cut man.

anyway my finger's all nicely bundled up in its new plaster and recuperating well.
and i think technology nowadays is CRAZY efficient.
because i just got the results from my aunt about my blood group when i had my blood tested at 12pm.
anyway here's the verdict:
i'm a B+.
SO BORING. hahaha
ah well at least i'm not a lost soul now.
feels kinda weird to finally know my blood group. :/

alright sorry about the above rant but i'm just so excited i got my blood tested.
HAHA! (:

I'M FINALLY DONE WITH E-LEARNING! yay!

i LOVE it when my friends laugh,
when i see them smile and be happy.
because that's what friendship is all about - fun, laughter, peace and joy!
haha okay well with some negative stuff thrown in too.
but yeah, i love seeing happiness on their faces.

i'm so uber proud of you! i was totally impressed with your massive transformation today! like it was almost overnight. haha seeing you as your usual upbeat, retarded self made me happy. though i came reeeeally close to shooting myself hahaha! but really, didn't it feel good to laugh, smile and be happy again? although yes i know that you're still plagued by your problems, but facing it with your head held high and with a smile just makes everything much easier to bear doesn't it? (: keep up the good work yo! and TELL ME I'M GOOD. :D

anyway, today was a good day.
lessons were slack, and training was fun!
finally did lead climbing today as part of my level2 sport climbing course with jerome.
yes, you read correctly - i said training was fun and that i did lead climbing on the high wall.
which means that, if you link the two together, i found lead climbing FUN.
omg! its a miracle! rachel enjoyed climbing the bane of her (CCA) life, the high wall!
wow.
haha it wasn't as bad as i imagined it to be..
and clipping is so damn fun.
amazingly i got as high as the forth last clip before i fell.
and i managed to reach there again on my second attempt.
so yes, i'd say today was a great day. (:

on a side note, i'm not very sure what to expect out of my life.
whenever i think something's going in this direction, it seems as though i was expecting too much.
like now? i really don't know what to think.
maybe i'm thinking too much.
heck i didn't know what to expect in the first place.
i'm feeling: sad/stupid/dumb/angry/frustrated/foolish/childish all rolled into one,
for actually thinking, hoping, wishing.
but apparently that's not how i'm seeing things.
you know what, screw it.
i'm annoyed.

MYEs sucked.
big time.
ahwell!
may God give me the discipline and interest to study hard.

anyway, today was the day that SRJC ran from the south pole all the way to the north pole!
21000+ km covered in total, 100+km more than the target of 2014km whoo!
each person had to complete a minimum of 10km,
i contributed by running 14km in the 1h45mins that was given to me.
praise the Lord for He sustained me and helped me complete the distance without stopping!
originally danielle and i planned to run 5km and walk the rest, but it was only after 10km that i felt the fatigue kick in.
last two rounds were hard on my legs, but i managed to continue without stopping to walk.
really have God to thank, i hardly had any sleep the night before because i got home late from FOP.
i also came to realise that i took my badminton trainings in cedar for granted!
because of that i cultivated a habit of pushing myself and not stopping,
and i really lived up to that habit today.
so i thank God, thank danielle, thank my friends who supported me. (:
oh, and thanks jerome for the h2o and chocolate! :D

ohyeah, speaking of FOP, parachute band and some other band from down under performed.
it wasn't bad at all, though i enjoyed previous years' better.
went with sab, lester and jerome..
when it was over we somehow ended up walking from the indoor stadium all the way to suntec city to meet sab's dad there.
it was a loooong, tiring and hot walk.
but it was fun, jerome managed to tell me part1 of his 'long story' to me..
and i probably lost some calories on the trek.

church tomorrow! i'm so happy! (:
holy communion tomorrow! i'm even happier! (:


alright this paragraph shall be dedicated to jerome, because i really hate to see him so troubled and down: