phoo.
prom is finally over.
the past week has been totally exhausting.
though its not like the following weeks won't be. darn.
initially prom was dead boring.
i don't know, i just wasn't excited at all.
but after i got that stupid thing over and done with, it started getting fun!
hardly touched the food, and surprisingly i wasn't very hungry.
probably because i was too scared so i lost my appetite. haha.
su-ann was right, the dancing at the last part was the most fun.
because everyone just let loose and had fun.
surprisingly my toes endured my heels pretty well.
not bad at all! haha.
i'll miss everyone.
that night was fun.

LG outing today!
bowled, payed pool and watched the game plan.
i also saw sab off in a cab to go to the airport.
stupid girl is heading to japan!
SAB YOU BETTER GET LOTSA STUFF BACK FOR ME!
and take many many pictures and many many videos of japan.
ahhh! i'm so excited for her.

i wonder when my curfewed days will be over.
its so troublesome, and such a bother.
i can't stand it anymore.
sheesh.

there's not a day that passes that i do not think of you.
i used to think that all those soppy shows in tv with all the heartache stuff was nonsense,
but now i realised that its true.
and the pain is really indescribable.
the pain is so bad that i have to curl up to ease it off.
but i just end up sobbing into my pillow at night.
my greatest regret was being unable to say a proper goodbye when you left.
and that i wasn't there with you at the last minute,
when you needed love the most.
what was i doing? sleeping like a log in my bed.
in my comfortable bed.
when you were wandering around, oblivous to your surroundings,
unable to see and hear the world for the last time.
sometimes i really can't live with this fact.
its so hard to try and mask my pain.
the continuation of life is so surreal, as if you existed.
the house looks so empty without you around,
without you never failing to greet us at the gate when we return home,
without you being there.
and in my heart, there's a missing piece that will never be replaced.

i miss all the times we spent together, just you and i.
the times i went for walks with you,
the times i bathed you,
the times i fed you,
the times i scolded you,
the times i petted you,
the times i teased you,
and many more.
but most of all, i miss the times when i could love you.

well i just want to say that God, you did a hell of a great job in giving Dino to me.
i really cannot express properly and accurately how thankful i am that i got Dino as my family member and friend.
i don't know if the pain and loss will subside and fade, but God, you know what i'm going through better than anyone out there.
and i know that you will see me through. no matter how long it may take.
and if, just IF, some animals do go to heaven and Dino's one of them, give me a sign that he's there so my pain will be eased.

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alright, enough of that.
anyway, I'M FREEEEEE!!
and as promised, here i am to proclaim the wonders of life. HAHA.
of which i really don't know what to say.
the skies are lovely and the birds are singing? lol.

okay okay, the dreaded O's are finally (yes, FINALLY) over.
and everybody is popping up on msn like flies!
bah, okay, flies is a bad word to use, so replace it with whatever word you fancy.
its quite surreal, having the knowledge that you can actually rest and play (and slack) guilt and stress-free.
i mean, after living more than a year under all this stress, it's gone.
it is certainly a strange feeling.
my dream of slacking stress-free has been fulfilled.
haha!

i think i'll miss all the secondary school work though.
secondary school work as in the stuff we learnt, not the homework etc!
yeah its like rather bu she de to throw away all my hard-written (yeah right) notes and all.
but heck, i need to clear my room, make way for my vet books and EARN SOME CASH!
from the karang-guni man. HAHA!
my darling biology notes and textbook can stay with me though. hehe.

i'm beginning to hate prom.
its so troublesome, finding a dress that doesn't make you look like a cow,
making appointments to get your make-up and hair done,
shopping for accessories and shoes, yada yada yada.
BAH!
my poor calves are dying from an excess of walking today.
and i just realised the importance of having an iSqueeze at home.
which i do not. DAMNN.
i'm starting to relive my badminton training days.
OWW.

make-over. WHOO~
paintball. WHOO~
chitty chitty bang bang. WHOO~
vietnam. WHOO~
youth camp. WHOO~
lahu. WHOO~
new zealand. WHOO~
christmas. WHOO~
new year. WHOO~
vet tech. WHOO~~

man, am i a busy girl. :D