i love sundays.
hah.

the LG lesson yesterday was about forgiveness.
the topic that i really like!
haha soooo ivan touched on the fundamental stuff,
like to forgive others, you must first learn to love them.
even if you dislike that person, it doesn't matter.
because loving someone doesn't mean that you gotta like that someone,
which makes things a little easier for us.
hate the sin, but not the sinner!
love your neighbour as yourself: forgive them as you would forgive yourself.
anyway returning hate for hate doesn't cancel out hate, it multiplies more of hate.
just think: hate + hate = 2 hate
though there's one thing that can break the vicious cycle of hate.
and that is love. <3

i realised that holding a grudge against people makes your life more miserable.
it makes you bitter, and it hardens your heart.
and i also realised that by forgiving those who've wronged you or whatever,
your life is a happier place.
and its true!
i've learnt it through experience so i should know.
everytime i forgive someone its like as though a weight as been lifted off my shoulders.
cliche as it sounds, but yeah.
and this joy brightens up your mood significantly.
though you gotta pray and walk close to God.
which will make the process of forgiving much easier.

i didn't really get the sermon,
though it was about giving to the Lord.
i suppose that means in the form of tithes, support etc.
to help the church and missionaries out there.
speaking of missionaries, i wonder how the korean hostages are.
though there's no news about them from the taliban,
and the 330pm deadline has long passed.
OMG i hope they're alright..
but i guess whatever the outcome, its God's will.
if they have been killed, the taliban didn't get anything out of it.
because the koreans would have won the battle as they'd be in heaven.
nyah nyah.

for some reason, i really miss my church friends.
like the times where we'd hang out at wen's or my house..
or having late-night supper at the near-by prat shop.
i just miss those times...

okay from now on, i am going to do some serious pia-ing.
i know i've said this before, and it never worked.
but this time, IT WILL.
i don't care if i forego my beauty sleep,
i don't care if i start to resemble a panda.
i don't care if i fall sick,
i don't care if i become a weirdo.
i'm doing this for the sake of myself, and for the sake of lahu.
with God's grace, He'll bring me through this,
and it'll be a bonus if i don't turn out looking like a freak.
I DON'T CARE, I WILL GET MY 6 POINTS!

i don't want roller blading to end!
this is so sad, the only thing that i look forward to every week,
and its going to END.
ahwell.
at least i got something out of it.
at least i can now redeem myself at roller blading!
east coast park watch out!
i'll return with a vengence. :D

oops its been a week already.
time passes by just too damn fast.

okay, so where shall i start.
oh yeah, last saturday! tommy emmanuel concert.
that guy's a legend i tell you.
undisputedly probably the BEST guitarist in the whole wide world.
he brings guitar playing to a whole new level.
my goodness his concert rocked from the very minute he stepped onto that stage.
and he played windy and warm! YAY.
$68 for the best seats is an absolute STEAL, i tell you.
it should be at least $100++ for someone like tommy emmanuel.
but i'm not complaining at least it was cheap.
and i got his autograph! *screams*
and i took a picture with him.
i can just imagine 2o years down the road i'll show that picture to my kids and say,
"mummy went to see him LIVE, you know? and look, mummy got his signature too!"
haha, okay thats a bit far-fetched but yeah.
charlotte if you're reading this, HAHAHAHA! :P

nothing much happened this week,
the usual lessons and remedials.
life's getting to be such a drag.
stupid O levels its destroying my life.
although, thank God, this week was superbly COOL.
because it rained almost everyday.
total dream come true for me.
but the annoying thing was that the lower sec jogging was cancelled twice.
they're becoming a bunch of sissies and whimps, no thanks to the school.
i mean, shuttle bus to and from potong pasir station and school??
madness.

i'm a tad worried.
pat and filz were already called up by their respective polys.
and i have yet to hear so much as a squeak from dear TP.
dammit i really hope they call...
but then again if they don't, i suppose God has something else in mind.
aye whatever, i've still got until 13 august to hear from them and leave everything in God's hands.
sigh.

sucking too hard on a lollipop, oh love's gonna get you down.
sucking too hard on a lollipop, oh love's gonna get you down.
say love, say love, oh love's gonna get you down.
say love, say love, oh love's gonna get you down.

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omg what a cute song.
i guess mika really IS good.
haha i suppose i now see why chris is in love with him.
his voice is scarily versatile.

happy racial harmony day!
i can't believe that i couldn't sleep last night because i was too excited.
mad.
but anyway met nette, eunice and pat at 630 and walked to school.
and the dear aunty unlocked our class doors so late,
making our exceptionally early trip to school a waste.
thankfully i managed to wear my yukata in time for flag raising too.
though i was sweating buckets.
ah, the price of vainity haha!

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my day was kind of ruined by a teacher whose name is not worth mentioning here.
she apparently has some kind of problem, you know,
like having great difficulty being sane and reasonable.
wonder how she managed to get such a high position in our school.
but anyway not a single thing was mentioned in the guidelines that ONLY, and i repeat,
ONLY chinese, malay and indian costumes were allowed.
ohyes, and i think she has great difficulty understanding the definition of the term RACE.

definitions of the word RACE:

1. A great division of mankind, characterized as a group by the sharing of a certain combination of features, which have been derived from their common descent, and constitute a vague physical background, usually more or less obscured by individual variations, and realized best in a composite picture.
2. An aggregate of phenotypically similar populations of a species, inhabiting a geographic subdivision of the range of a species, and differing taxonomically from other populations of the species.
3. Race "connotes geographic ancestry, by continent or large continental subregion" and "is used to denote continental or subcontinental clades". In "Cladistic taxonomy ... the basic taxon [is] the genealogical unit, ancestors-plus-line- (or tree) -of-descent, what according to the present analysis races are."

taken from wikipedia.com

whichever of those 3 definitions you choose,
they all say that a race is a set of people.
and racial harmony day would thus mean the commemoration of peace among any race,
not just the 4 main ones in sunny island singapore.
true enough, we must remember the racial riots,
but if that's the main point that you want to bring across during cedar's racial harmony day,
SAY SO.
but nothing was said, so i don't see why the huge fuss that came only from YOU.

be grateful that at least we came in traditional costumes of other races.
but if its still such a hard thing to come to terms with,
the very least you could have done was to let us off.
ALTHOUGH WE DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG.
i'm pretty sure the school got the message that you've got something against cedarians wearing anything other than chinese, malay and indian costumes,
so i don't think they'll wear any other next year.
ah but then again you need to show your 'power'.
heck.

another thing that is quite certainly unforgivable is that you shot off cheryl.
she was wearing her own national costume, dammit.
the very least that could have been done was to at least let her wear it.
but NOOOOO.
its like the same as saying, "hey you, i don't give a shit if you're from whatever country and if you're proud of your national costume. i want this, and i won't stand for any of this. to heck with your costume."
yupp. the message was roughly the same.
or at least that's how i would have felt if i was cheryl.

ah yes, the great contradiction.
what was with the nepalese dance during assembly?!
don't get me wrong, i enjoyed it like hell.
but helloooo? i thought SOMEBODY didn't allow other races?
i bet she didn't even realise it.
sheesh.

WHAT IS CEDAR COMING TO.

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omg i ranted so much.
happy now, eunice? haha.

took as many pictures as i could while still in my yukata,
and thankfully tracy didn't bring home my cheong sam.
so i changed into it during recess and felt like a bride doing those clothes changing routines.
basically today was quite slack.
assembly was funny!
miss lizah's voice is so distinctive haha.
amusing way of presenting items, not bad!

omg omg OMG tommy emmanuel tomorrow!
ehehehehehe.

I CAN GO TO LAHU!!!!!!
*screams*

i've got so many things on my mind that i'm so not in the mood to prepare for my prelims.
i wish i could just skip my Os and go straight to poly.
but what am i rambling about, i haven't been accepted yet.
ahaha.

that woman that ruined my day yesterday should be thankful.
because i have forgiven her for what she did to me.
and i do wish her all the best since she's one miserable lady with one miserable life.
poor thing.

say your prayers
and stomp it out.
rarh!

okay let's just say.. today really sucks.
eh wait i change that. thankyou God, for today!
so... today rocks.
but due to some unfavourable circumstances, my rocking day was kind of ruined.

unfavourable circumstance #1
the chinese O level listening compre paper today was NONSENSE.
firstly the radio was way too loud.
there were so much revebrations that i could hardly hear the words.
eeeeyah.
and to make things worse, i don't think i fully understood everything.
to sum it all up, i'm not very confident.
BUT I SO GOTTA GET AT LEAST 8 CORRECT!
need it to pull my paper 1 and 2 grades up.

unfavourable circumstance #2
after the listening compre, pat and i happily made our way to temasek poly.
i was told on friday by some administrator that i could go anytime from mon-fri to enquire about the courses.
however when i approached the lady manning the CAREER AND COURSE GUIDANCE booth,
all i got were hurting remarks.
firstly, the lady was so RUDE. and here i was being so nice and polite about everything.
secondly, i was never given a chance to fully explain why i was there.
thirdly, she kept interrogating in an accusing tone as to WHO i spoke to on friday.
(as if i would know who's in-charge of picking up the phones)
forthly, she made no, i repeat, NO attempt to try to accomodate me.
the 'wonderful' lady with 'wonderful' interpersonal skills just simply gave me the 'wth-are-you-doing-here-asking-me-this' kind of look the whole entire time.
let's just say, she totally RUINED my impression of TP.
and she drove me close to tears, literally.
thankfully the other place that she directed me to had better service.
(wait, the first lady didn't even provide anything close to service)
at least the second lady tried her best to give me some info although i already knew those.
at least she TRIED.
ah whatever let's just say that i wasted my entire afternoon today.

you can probably conclude that i need all your prayers even more,
now that i didn't get anything out of my eventful trip to TP.
i was hoping that by meeting a lecturer, i'd get an advantage.
cos he'll know that i'm really interested.
but nooooooo i was denied that privilege.
so anyway i don't care, i shall put this bad experience behind,
and leave EVERYTHING into God's hand.
and we'll see how, come 13 august.

i wanna say a big THANKYOU to randall and pat!
who were kind enough to waste their precious time to help me.
thanks a lot. (:

i need something to destress me.
something like..
THE SIMPSONS MOVIE.
had a good laugh about SPIDERPIG with sab and pat.
i find it so super amusing.
*sings* spiderpig, spiderpig!
AHAHAHA.

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Say the word and I will sing for You
Over oceans deep, I will follow
If each star was a song
And every breath of wind, praise
It would still fail by far to say
All my heart contains
I simply live,
I simply live for You

As the glory of Your presence
Now fills this place
In worship, we will meet You face to face
There is nothing in this world
To which You can be compared
Glory on glory, praise upon praise
You bind the broken hearted
And save all my tears
By Your word, You set the captives free
There is nothing in this world
That You cannot do
I simply live,
I simply live for You

here's a happy belated birthday to esther, lihui and lixin,
whose birthdays were yesterday!
yay. (:

hello charlotte!
yesyes i know tommy emmanuel.
and i'm surprised you know him too!
ahaha he's awesome.
too bad you didn't get the tickets!
never mind i'll gloat about how good he was to you next monday, how about that?
meanwhile you can entertain yourself by watching him on youtube.
see see i'm such a nice senior, you ought to thank me. :P

okay okay i've updated.
so sweeleng will stop COMPLAINING on my tagboard.
haha! and maybe i shall make it a point to update at least once a week
so as to keep leng satisfied.
unless i've got interesting stuff that i want to share, then i'll update more often.
i think i shall make it a point to post my weekly Life Group lessons here every sunday.
for the benefit of somebody who always wakes up late (also known as sabrina kwang).
*coughs*
nyahaha.
wallace taught about BGR today!
ahahaha such a relevant topic in our lives.
on marriage, people aren't meant to be alone... ref. Genesis 2:18
on singlehood ref. Matthew 19:11
they're both gifts and blessings from God, so learn to accept whichever path He wants you to take.
after all, Jehovah Jireh, the Lord will provide.
yeah so we oughta stay close to God and listen to Him,
especially if we want to find a suitable partner next time.
and dating's a platform to get to know your partner, not for you to 'test the waters'.
i suppose that's it.

i like sundays.
i really do!

everytime i see the notice about december's mission trip i cannot help it but smile.
i just miss that place, you know?
where i can be away from all the materialistic worries of the world.
a few days ago i printed some pictures that were taken 2 years back up in lahu.
and it brought back so much memories.
i so cannot wait!

i really hope that my dpa application is accepted,
so that i can go to temasek poly to do my diploma in veterinary technology.
there's nothing else that i want to do, apart from that.
i don't even want to go to JC!
waste of time, if you ask me.
besides, i can finally do something that i've always wanted to.
and not waste away my life studying things that i won't use next time.
if you're reading this, pray for me okay?
(ahaha, yeah you too, lyndon!)
i reeeeeally want this course.
so very much!

ask and it shall be given to you;
seek and you will find;
knock and the door will be open unto you.

oh yeahhh.
tommy emmanuel, 21 july!
OMG I AM SO EXCITED.
though he'll just serve to demoralise me and my brother.
but never mind.
haha hope he plays windy and warm!

yay.

helloo annonymous, whoever you are.
i suppose you're one of my many juniors.
which is so like DUH.
for your information, i'm not the captain. so therefore i can't do anything by myself.
although if i were i'd really kill all of you.
thanks for being so unrespectful. but then again its of no surprise to me.
and after what you tagged, i think you just made it worse.
do you want to know why i don't care?
its because you guys don't care about training in the first place.
we tried to be nice and teach you all proper training etiquette but noooooo all we got were rude responses.
so i'm sorry but all my 'disppointing shit' is due to you guys.
can't really help it, can i?
so run along and go find something more fulfilling to do,
other than hiding your identity and annoying your senior further,
like thinking of how you should make it up to mrgoh and mrwee.

oh, by the way, your grammar's quite bad.

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okay thats it.
enough on the ANNOYING stuff that i'd much rather forget.

due to popular *cough* demand,
i shall update again bwahaha.
(happy now, leng?)
though some people just ruined my mood to blog.
but heck i'll try.

uhm. roller blading was fun!
haha.
hopefully by the end of the course i'll finally know how to roller blade confidently.
i still need to work on my stopping though hahaha.

finally finally FINALLY watched transformers!
OH MY GAWD.
if i could swear i would swear that its the BEST movie that i've seen so far.
okay apart from star wars.
its like a transformers fan's dream come true!
optimus prime was waaaaaaay cool.
though he shouldn't have a mouth. hhaha.
megatron looks like an overgrown gorilla.
and starscream looks like a crab spider.
haha but overlooking all those creative licensing, it totally owned.
sab said i looked like i was having fits when bumblebee and optimus prime transformed.
can't have been that bad, la you dope!
and josh dumahel is HOT! nyahaha.
oh so sad, this is my last movie that i'm gonna watch till after my Os.
which means that i'm going to miss the simpsons movie! *cries*
but nevermind at least i watched transformers.
good enough ahaha.
its quite annoying, though, how so many good movies came out this year.
of all years. stupid Os. haha!

sorry leng!
i've run out of things to say haha.
i forgot. hehe.

i don't know how to say this, but i think i'm disappointed.
although i don't know if disappointed is the right word to use, since i don't really care.
but being a senior, i have to, to some extent right?
so okay fine, i'm disappointed.
maybe a tad amused at how senseless some people can be.
first time in the history of cedar's badminton.
congrats, you guys should be proud of yourselves.
just think how the juniors will look at you and think that its alright to do such things.
just think.
mrgoh and mrwee must be really let down. personally i don't blame them.
after putting in so much effort and time to mentor all of you.
and this is what you give in return.
heck, i've left the team already.
but i just hope that this doesn't happen again.

happy youth day!
today doesn't feel very youth-y though.
argh was supposed to watch transformers with wen but due to some *cough* circumstances,
i was denied permission to go.
so i ended up meeting up with celesther after almost a year to study at my place.
stupid girl looks the same.
and its amazing how we can get along as if we see each other everyday!
haha but it didn't do us any good.
since we spent the time talking about EVERYTHING under the sun.
i realised that celesther's really good at listening to your woes.
gee i should've gone to her last year!
when i was caught in that mess. ahaha.
missing your company already, dearie!
we seriously have to go out again soon.
I WANT MY CUPCAKES! rarh.

yucks. back to school tomorrow again.
i think we're changing places.
boo! i wanna sit in front.
haha i sound like a nerd.
but contrary to popular belief, sitting in front is nice.
cos you can't fall asleep and you have to pay attention in class.
so there's a lesser chance of slacking while the teacher's teaching.
although that hasn't exactly played a part in improving my studies.
not that my studies have improved anyway haha.

i suppose i've more or less decided where i want to go after Os.
though i'm still plagued with the itty bitty annoying worries about the cons of it.
ahwell i guess that's one of life's tough decisions.
which totally sucks.

can't wait for thursday!
roller blading, yay!