i wonder
whether all big brothers are the same.
forever saying that they're so uber handsome,
forever thinking that their muscles are the best,
and forever putting down their little sisters.

Jesus said that if someone slaps you on your cheek, you turn your head and offer him your other cheek.

okay fine so i shut up when i'm put down, and take it with a laugh.
but to do it so many times can be really really hurting you know.
i know, he might not mean it but it still gets to your heart.
especially when you're sensitive.
it really feels like a knife through your heart, corny as it may sound.
and i feel so damn useless and worthless.
that's not a nice feeling, by the way.

don't get me wrong i love my brother to bits and i'll do anything within my power to make him happy.
he's awfully nice (at most times) and he's really cool.
but it gets on my nerves whenever he says something degrading to me.
although i keep telling myself that he probably doesn't mean it, it still cuts.
ohwell.
maybe that's what little sisters are for.
for their big brothers to bully.
*shrugs*
maybe i'm just too nice. HAHA.

okayy its off to vietnam tomorrow!
after being back from japan for less than a week.
man i think i'm really lucky to be able to travel so much.
but the part that sucks is that i don't deserve all this!
haha just look at my grades and my attitude in life.
i don't think i've been a good daughter, a good student.
darn i really should change my attitude.

i miss japan so much!
blah i want to go back there again.
sponsors anyone? :P