these few days i seem to be invisible.
and i don't know why.
because everytime i pass by you or talk to you,
you look past me as if i'm not there.

my thoughts still stand on you being cold,
and now it seems like our friendship is superficial.
it seems like i bought a one-way ticket or something,
its always me giving, hardly ever receiving.
maybe i'm being selfish but i don't think so.

it has come to the extent that i don't feel 'worthy' enough to face you.
i don't like to tell you my troubles anymore, confiding in you like last time
because it always always seems like you don't care,
like i'm some insignificant thing that's in your way.

if i'm not wanted just tell me.
because i don't think i am.
you're always to preoccupied with your own friends,
never giving me any time, let alone any attention.
because once they come along, i'm not there anymore.

if you don't realise it,
its time you did.
i want our friendship to last, really.
not a superficial one, one that's only on the surface.
and i want you to know this:
i love you very very much
it hurts me more than you think it does to be treated this way.

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bleh i don't want to retake my oral!
wonder who those crazy people were.
making us all suffer for their kiasu-ism.
sheesh.

thanks leng for listening to me ramble on and on just now!
maybe i was thinking too much. maybe not.
ahwell thanks again leng!
can't wait for tomorrow. (:

i'm hurt that i wasn't informed of the change in the CCA race.
oh whatever its obvious i'm not needed.

ahhh sports day sports day.
finally a sports day that i've got NOTHING to do at all.
kinda sad, actually.
because i can't contribute to anything.
nevermind i'll go cheer garde and rose.
haha though rose has no chance of catching up anymore LOL.
gosh i'm so unsupportive haha.