You are my strength when I am weak
You are the treasure that I seek
You are my all in all

Seeking You as a precious jewel
Lord, to give up I'd be a fool
You are my all in all

Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name
Jesus, Lamb of God
Worthy is Your name

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i think God totally owns.
because whatever your situation may be, He always provides something that's related to it.
it could be in the form of a hymn, verse or experience.
in my case today it was the first two.
after school i got jittery and when i read my verse of the day on my phone,
i can't remember exactly what it was but it was something like the Lord will give you strength.
and it was seriously what i needed at that time,
God's reassurance that everything would be fine.
5mins before entering the hall, i got nervous again and sang the song above.
and all of a sudden i was so calm despite everyone freaking out beside me.
God gave me strength when my legs were like jelly and when my heart was racing.
He answered my prayers and calmed my soul and made my mind clear.
because of Him i didn't stumble when i read, nor was i unable to think of stuff to say.

God gave me the wonderful opportunity of experiencing Him today.
and for that i am humbled.

okayokay, listening compre's left!
hope i get full marks, haha!
i suppose chinese class is not free period, YAY!
but i'll miss lao chan. haha. (:

wow, last day of the first week of term 3 and it feels like the ninth week or something.
:/

dammmmmit school!

malacca was a good break.
really glad that all four of us made it!
and i spent lotsa time with my brother. xD
like finally! no distractions for him haha.
shopped a lot and got a lot of junk.
and that stupid boy bought so much for puayhoon haha.
but nevermind.
ohman and i think i gained weight from eating so much.
but the nonya food there's just incredible i could go on eating it forever.
haha buah keluak owns! but my granny's one is nicer. :D
and how could i forget the chendol. just divine. HAHAHA!
i sound like a foodie.

teengames the day after i got back.
first thing in the morning and there was already a commotion among our team.
twiny got sick and so we were short of 1 player.
and dear GC was late so pat and i were the first to arrive.
met christine and spent the next half hour trying to get a replacement.
finally leng had the grace to save us and our problem was solved. lol.
the competition was interesting.
i still don't know how eunice's team got 1st place last year cos there are just so many netballers taking part its UNFAIR.
haha i know like a sore loser but still..!
totally unfair. haha.
ohwell i'm just glad i wasn't there for the 2nd day 'cos i heard that pat's junior's team were ****ing annoying (don't mind my language).
like the 1st day just wasn't enough, puhleese.
nevermind i shan't waste my time fuming over their pathetically small attempts to make themselves feel good.
i shall now divert my ramblings to the fact that christine's a seriously NICE person.
we never met her before and she agreed to chaperone us for teengames as our team manager.
put aside 2 whole days to be with us too! awww.
she seriously looks MUCH younger than she is too. hahaha real fun to be with.
hope to see you again soon! (:

4th trial at aj on wednesday!
but the 1st official one. haha.
the j1s weren't there so it was just us sec4s.
made friends with the beatty girls and they're nice. haha.
what they say is certainly true... never judge a book by its cover!
haha i shall bear that in mind more often.
didn't play very well on that day because the mph floor was so slippery and i was too scared to move.
and because of that i don't think mrlee thinks that i'm good.
which SUCKS. cos i really want to get into ajc.
heck, i want ALL of us to get in, even the beatty girls!
'cos i think we all would make such a cute team if we do.
and there's enough of us to make a team too! counting that other girl from mayflower.
can't remember her name though OOPS.
but yeah.
hope the 4th july trials are in the main hall again so i won't be so scared.
I NEED TO REDEEM MYSELF.

spent the last few days catching up on hana kimi...
since the last time i watched it on youtube was months ago.
and i had forgotten how retardedly nice it is.
anddd how retardedly shuai wang dong chen is. hehe.
and ohmyGAWD episode 4 part 2. those few minutes were haven for me.
shan't say why! but nevermind haha.
i think the songs in the OST are nice.
and i can't believe i'm saying this but i think i like fahrenheit. OMG.
maybe its cos of dong chen haha. but heck their songs are quite nice.
oh gawd i'm turning so cheena. lol.

my uncle gave me his acoustic bass!
I'M SO HAPPY.
at first i thought he was joking when he just said, "do you want it?"
but then... HEH HEH. i took it. :D
and now i've got a goal to be able to play a complete song decently by the end of this year.
aw right! and also to be able to read tabs smoothly too.
haha my baby's proudly sitting in my room now. xD

i always thought that once my Os are over, my problems would go away.
but i was wrong.
or maybe i just didn't specify which type of problems.
because i've got tonnes of problems that i gotta resolve!
ah damn.
mission trip: 7th to 18th dec.
and i tell myself that nothing in this world is gonna stop me from going.
but my aunty's 60th birthday party bash is apparrently going to prove me wrong.
first it was my family holiday to new zealand.
if the dear travel agent can't get us the dates that go around my mission trip,
there it goes.
so dear God, please please PLEASE let it go well.
but then there's my aunt's bash again.
her birthday's on the 16th and i would be in lahu.
she's been damn good to me, bringing me all over the world on holidays and stuff...
and i know since its her big 60, i should be around.
BUT STILL! its the mision trip we're talking about.
i've waited 2 years for this. another year and i'll just DIE.
i can't do it. i've been away too long.
and neither will i cut my trip short to come back in time.
it may seem selfish, but then again if i do that the whole objective of the mission trip would be lost.
if you're reading this, pray for me okay!
i really need a solution to this mess.
namely that i can go for the FULL duration of the mission trip.
-sigh.

ai dao! x)

ah damn. 1 week and a half left.
before the nightmare begins again.
and then i'll hate life even more.
there was once a time when i used to think that the june holidays were loooong.
but alas, things have changed.
so much too, at that.
and the world just seems to get smaller and smaller as you get older.
boo.

it seems like everyone's in love now.
or at least in some stage of feeling attraction.
wonder why i'm like immune to it. haha!
or maybe 'cos i'm refusing myself to be caught in the silly wave of infatuation.
but then again sometimes i feel like i like someone, but i keep telling myself it won't work out.
soooo, why go through the trouble and end up hurting yourself in the end? yeaaahhh.
gawd i sound so anti-love. haha!

i miss going to ajc to train.
the people and atmosphere there are a refreshing change.
silly as it may sound, since i've only been there 3 times.
but still! haha.
sometimes i just hate the monotony of life.
i still can't make up my mind about jc or poly though.
i seriously need somebody or something to help me decide.
okay then again there's only God since He knows everything.
haha i can just imagine Him giving lectures to students about which route to take.
*laughs*

finally made some progress in collecting money for cedar's building fund!
although its only about $28. but still, progress is progress! haha.
haven't started selling the red cross tickets though, OMG.
maybe i'll end up doing what i did last year - taking $20 from my wallet and buying everything.
HAHAHAHA.

flag day on saturday was retarded.
stupid eunice conveniently woke up late and made nette and i wait for her and start at 8.30.
leng decided to go home and pat was uncontactable (i choose to believe she conveniently forgot about it), so only the 3 of us went.
faithfully sold flags for one hour and a half outside paragon and i'm quite happy with myself.
surprisingly i wasn't dejected over rejections, unlike last year haha.
i kept telling myself give the sweetest and brightest smile and say thankyou if people refuse you.
that way, they'll feel like shit for not donating.
haha hope it worked though. xP

i'm trying to think of ways to save my money.
all of a sudden i'm going BROKE and i don't know why!
apart from the shopping spree on sunday that saw me spend $1oo (thanks to sab) on clothes...
haha! but it was damn fun la, and addictive! shucks.
kwangster! i wanna go shopping with you again!
at far east okay?! then we can refuel at sweet talk and anatolia and hit the stores with a vengence!
whoots. (:

faith's in japan now.
i'm mighty jealous but i happy for her at the same time. (:
hope she gets the books for me though! xD
come back soon, honey!

ahhhh it was my grandfather's birthday yesterday.
HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY TO YOUU!
though its highly impossible that you'll see this but nevermind.
haha.

went to ajc yesterday too,
for some dsa badminton trial thingy.
ALL BECAUSE OF GEORGINA.
leng and huiyan keep blaming me (cos i dragged them along)
and so i shall blame geor for begging me to go. HAHA!
i think i have a thing with unintentionally bumping into people whom i will meet later.
like how i saw mrlee at the station and walked in the opposite direction and almost got lost.
haha. amusing.
well i must say, training with the ajc badminton team is a new experience.
for starters, its a co-ed and so we had to be aware of how we behave.
and to think the 3 of us almost took off our skirts in front of mrlee LITERALLY.
but thankfully we realised that we weren't in cedar and ran squealing to the toilet. LOL.

i still have yet to come to terms with that mrphua trains in chinese.
and he speaks so damn fast i hardly catch what he's saying.
sooooo huiyan and leng are to be my translators from now on. haha.
he's rather scary too, i got freaked out so many times when he shouted at his players jokingly.
but he's funny. very amusing mannerisms.
though i learnt not to say that i'm close to a girl (friend) because he'll think CROOKED.
if you know what i mean. haha.

saw julia yesterday too and she hasn't changed one bit.
she looks the same, plays the same and goes home from school the same (in a cab) haha.
but omg she's gotten even more pro. haha!
playing with the j2s was rather scary... but after awhile i got used to it.
my partner seems nice but i still can't remember her name.
her interception and tapping skills are suuuuuper zai and i wanna learn how to do that too!
haha then i can whack whack whack better. :D
maye's funny and short. HAHA!

okay enough said,
i just hope that we'll still be playing games tomorrow.
i'm not ready to start proper training yet haha.
yay dinner! wonder where we'll be eating.