i don't know if i can take it anymore.
don't know how much more optimistic about stuff i can get.
i think i'm destined by God to not have things my way.
which sucks.

okay i'm being so contradicting.
but i can't help it, i really can't.
though deep down inside i'm secretly hoping that somehow, just somehow,
it'll come true for me.
but i doubt it.
God probably has something else in mind for me.
-sighh.

why can't i just get things right for once?
everytime it happens, its always the wrong person.
i'm starting to feel like i'm not supposed to be that way.
actually i really don't mind, but then again, it looks fun.
and i'm hoping, too, that my fears are wrong.