i LOVE it when my friends laugh,
when i see them smile and be happy.
because that's what friendship is all about - fun, laughter, peace and joy!
haha okay well with some negative stuff thrown in too.
but yeah, i love seeing happiness on their faces.

i'm so uber proud of you! i was totally impressed with your massive transformation today! like it was almost overnight. haha seeing you as your usual upbeat, retarded self made me happy. though i came reeeeally close to shooting myself hahaha! but really, didn't it feel good to laugh, smile and be happy again? although yes i know that you're still plagued by your problems, but facing it with your head held high and with a smile just makes everything much easier to bear doesn't it? (: keep up the good work yo! and TELL ME I'M GOOD. :D

anyway, today was a good day.
lessons were slack, and training was fun!
finally did lead climbing today as part of my level2 sport climbing course with jerome.
yes, you read correctly - i said training was fun and that i did lead climbing on the high wall.
which means that, if you link the two together, i found lead climbing FUN.
omg! its a miracle! rachel enjoyed climbing the bane of her (CCA) life, the high wall!
wow.
haha it wasn't as bad as i imagined it to be..
and clipping is so damn fun.
amazingly i got as high as the forth last clip before i fell.
and i managed to reach there again on my second attempt.
so yes, i'd say today was a great day. (:

on a side note, i'm not very sure what to expect out of my life.
whenever i think something's going in this direction, it seems as though i was expecting too much.
like now? i really don't know what to think.
maybe i'm thinking too much.
heck i didn't know what to expect in the first place.
i'm feeling: sad/stupid/dumb/angry/frustrated/foolish/childish all rolled into one,
for actually thinking, hoping, wishing.
but apparently that's not how i'm seeing things.
you know what, screw it.
i'm annoyed.