last night was the first time in many many days that i actually felt truly happy.
even if is was for that brief period of time.
it nonetheless felt good, so so good.
its like i had forgotten how i felt before all this happened.

watched changeling with rai and tiff yesterday at 6.40pm..
had dinner with tiff first, while rai came later.
the movie's pretty good, no wonder it was nominated for an oscar.
it was quite funny during the show, though.
tiff and i were squirming during the icky parts lol.
after the show we went to take neoprints! and made a hell lotta noise while using the machines.
its been years since i last took neoprints, and it made me feel young again! haha wth.
it was hilarious, anyway, taking with them.
and they're both absolute neoprint noobs. tiff kept ruining the pictures she was editing by writing halfway when the time was up. haha wth again.
got a drink at BK after that, and proceeded to cam whore lol.
oh and not to mention laugh like hell at rai's funny neoprint faces.
then for some reason, we decided to walk from cineleisure all the way to plaza sing.
the walk wasn't as long as it seemed, probably because we were fooling around.
stopped by the istana park along the way to take more pictures!
first time i stepped into the park. it's actually quite nice!
especially at night. hardly anyone's there! which made it even nicer.
after that we departed and i went home.
got a lecture from my dad because i was late, but for the extra time i had with the girls, it was all worth it.
i really miss them, man.
us three useless idiots who only rot at home hahah.
rai, tiff! you two better get jobs okay!

speaking of which i'll be going back to work at my uncle's eye clinic, starting tomorrow.
which means that i won't have much of a life anymore.
not like i had one before i got the job anyway..
best thing is, mel's gonna be working with me!
my uncle agreed to let her work there too.
i'm so happy! finally i've got a friend with me.
my days working there will be so much better than last year's.
yay!

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every night before i sleep, i reflect on my day.
and i think to myself, "there're so many things i want to tell you, so many things to share with you."
feeling lonely sucks. but its how i feel now.
somehow before i knew you, i never felt that way.
but now that we're not talking, this lonliness is overwhelming.
there's no one else i'd want to tell these stuff to but you.
that night i had 2 minutes to listen to your voice again.
after what felt like eternity of silence.
i was...
briefly happy.
i wonder if there's anything i do that'll change the way you think.
i'll do anything within my control, i swear.

'cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break even