4 and a half hours to go

I can't believe I'm counting down in mere hours now! GAHHH I can't believe it omgg. ): Up until last night everything still felt so surreal.. But I'm starting to come to terms with reality now.

I'm still not too sure of my feelings right now.. Sad, excited, nervous, uncertain etc. It's all one big jumble of emotions. Makes me feel so messy. But I guess its normal, right? Although the only emotion that Wen is showing is pure excitement about joining me in Melbourne come July. Wish I could be like her.

There are so many things that are left undone still.. Like going swimming with Sab, or taking pictures of the different blocks in school with Dan. Guess I'll just have to leave it to when I come back to visit, hopefully in December. And there are so many friends that I wasn't able to meet up with too. Especially Pok Hua, El, Celestine and Celesther, Andrew etc. Sorry if you're one of them, its just that my schedule was too damn packed. And one tip if you're going abroad to study: start your farewell outings waay in advance.

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Incredibly, I feel strong enough to move on now. We really should've talked things out before everything got beyond our control. But what's done is done, and as much as I would like to turn back time to relive the past, I can't. So I guess its time to move on, to get on with my life. Most importantly, I think I can be truly happy again. Like I once was a long time ago. I miss that old me.

Time will tell, I guess. And if its meant to be, its meant to be. What I just said doesn't mean that I'm totally giving up, and neither does it mean that I won't remain open to other options. We'll see how it turns out. But either way I'm going to give it my best shot at restoring our friendship, and I wish you'd do the same.

It'll be so awesome, don't you think? (:

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Ahh guess I can leave with no regrets now. Thank God. Last night was good. Even though I slept at 6 in the morning because I was talking to some people and trying to finish up my packing at the same time. Yeah, it was good.

Well, I guess its time to say goodbye everyone. Gonna miss everyone of you! If you're reading this and I know you, you'll be missed, trust me.

Alright. Time to prepare my tissues. Praying that I won't cry like hell later. :/

Look forward to the next post! 'Cause it'll be from.. Melbourne! WHOOHOO! (: