Semester 1 exams are up in 2 weeks' time. And here I am blogging about nothing in particular, Facebooking, downloading songs and everything else I can think of besides studying. What the shit am I doing! Don't have much motivation to study anything, except for biology. That has always been the case though, me having only the willingness to do biology and nothing else.

I especially don't have the motivation to study chemistry, partly because I dislike my teacher and that the way the syllabus is taught is so haphazard and all over the place that I really can't stand it. Its so bad that when my teacher teaches everything sounds new to me when in actual fact, I've learnt it before and I was able to comprehend the concepts. Then there's physics. I really like my teacher but its getting to the point where my mind's beginning to blank out and refuse to try and figure the concepts out. English is still a waste of time and ink, but I can't do anything about that. I've been getting mostly As for all my tests though, and I also think that its one of the reasons why I can't be bothered that much to mug now. Which is really bad, because I really need to revise! I keep telling myself that but I always end up procrastinating.

I wonder why its so easy to procrastinate than to get down to studying. I wonder why God made things that way.. That its easier to fall into doing something that shouldn't be done while the thing that you're supposed to be doing is more difficult. I guess its just like sinning. But maybe thats what makes life more meaningful. It wouldn't be very accomplishing if all the good things in life were obtained or done easily.

I'm kind of stuck at a cross road now.. Can't decide if I should drop physics or chemistry in Semester 2. I keep hearing that chemistry in Semester 2 is really hard and all, and that makes me want to drop chemistry even more. But if that's the case, I'd be taking Semester 2 physics. Considering the fact that I've never taken physics in my entire school life (ignoring General Science in lower secondary), I'm not exactly full of confidence over continuing physics. Although physics over here is at a much simpler level as compared to Singapore's standard.. I have absolutely no idea what to choose. And I gotta chose wisely! Because I need to get As for all my subjects in order to get into my physiotherapy course next year. Sigh, I hate crossroads.

Maybe God's telling me that its time to get back on track with Him. I've strayed, and the feeling sucks.

"[God] gives you hope where others see defeat, energy when others are exhausted, wisdom when others are confused, and courage when others are fearful."

Amen to that.

Prelims have started for my friends back home.. Makes me gape at how time has flown - it seems like just yesterday that we were mugging (or at least I was trying to) for our promos. And now, they're almost at the end of the JC race. I can't believe it, its going to be over for them soon. I feel so proud of them for making it so far! Its things like this that makes me wish I was back in Singapore giving them moral support and encouragement. Its just different doing it over MSN or Skype. People tend not to take you that seriously. Plus being there in person is so much nicer. I feel more sincere too.

The one thing about being abroad that I absolutely hate is the feeling of detachment from family and friends back home. The obvious reason is that I'm no longer in Singapore to constantly meet up and see them, and neither can I have long chats on the phone with friends like I used to. There's always MSN, Skype and Facebook but like I said, its all different and there's always that barrier of some sort separating us. Nothing's the same. Though I am extremely thankful that there are so many mediums that we can use to remain in contact. And thank God Skype is free. I will die if I had to pay for it which would leave me no way of having video chats without paying. So thank God for Skype. Also, I have absolutely no idea of whats happening in my sunny little island of Singapore. I do know that Ramadan has just started for the Muslims (which made me reminisce about last year when Rai and I would be studying and I'd hide under the table whenever I wanted to drink water so she wouldn't be tempted), and that the Ghost Month is here. But if it weren't for my friends who mentioned it to me, I wouldn't have realised. See, I'm so cut-off from the world!! I miss reading newspapers. I miss being in the know-how.

And Rai? If you're reading this, I'm thinking of you all the time during this time of fasting for you! Especially the fond memories we had last year while mugging for promos. Really miss bugging you whenever it was time to bukak puasar! And I remember asking you how to spell it too, right? Haha love you and miss you loads luv. <3

Anyway, Pris showed me this website that compares Western and Asian cultures. Take a look at it, its really true! And quite funny at that.

Looking forward to school everyday because of some people. Really brightens up my day. (: And I've discovered the wonders of a new Japanese band! Totally love GReeeeN's songs, they're so upbeat and catchy. Should learn to sing them, so I can sing along whenever my classmate sings them. Hahaha (:

Ah okay whatever I've wasted enough time typing this out. Ta for now!

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Slogan of Climb On 2009:
If you have never climbed, you've never breathed. If you have never bouldered, you've never lived.

Amen to that too.