I think I've just hit the lowest point in my time in Melbourne. Started this week, with my dorm friends finally leaving one by one. Amanda and Daphne left on Monday, Qimin on Wednesday, Jeri yesterday and Lingchi and Gen today. Which leaves me with no one else in the clique that I'm close to save for Momma. Its really sad to see everyone leave, especially when they're all going back home while you're stuck here for another month. So yeah, I started getting pretty down ever since Amanda and Daphne left. Dinner was never the same, with empty seats and less conversation. Kinda realised that I took everyone's presence for granted, I think. Because its like only after they've left that I realised how much I valued their presence and energy. But I guess that's just human, isn't it? Taking things for granted and only valuing it after its gone. But anyway, today was pretty much the worse day, with Gen and Lingchi leaving.. Said bye to Gen before I left for school, because her flight was at 5pm. When I got back from school though, Lingchi was still around and I was quite happy that I still had one last dinner with her. But then her plans changed and her aunt decided to pick her for dinner and so there went our last meal in Glenn together. ): Was kinda bummed and sad, but couldn't do anything about it. Tried not to show my sadness when I said bye to Lingchi, but I really felt it inside.. You know that feeling of being left behind and feeling so down that you just don't want to do anything but hide in your room? Yeah that's how I felt. Although Momma was still with me (which I am highly thankful for), I was still down. Went to dinner.. Felt even worse. Its like my other half is missing. Which, in a way, is true because Kakak and I pretty much did everything together in Glenn. And ogling at eyecandies by myself is no fun at all. ): Sigh. I really miss Kakak already! ): And everyone else too.. Time passed so fast here, feels like just yesterday that I just moved in and Kakak popped by with the rest to say hi to me. And now their school year is over and everyone's gone home.

Really sucks to be all alone now. ): Miss you Kakak! ):

But like I said, I'm really thankful that I still have Momma and others like Ana, Kerry, Sharon etc. here in Glenn.. At least I wouldn't have to lonerise completely during mealtimes. And then there's Alexis too, who is so amazingly smart and knowledgeable haha. I thank God for her because I think He's placed her in my life to help bring me through this tough time, especially next week when I have to move to Chisholm. Alexis is moving too, and she's going to try and get a car so that we can move easily. And since she's been here for like four years already, she pretty much is familiar with Chisholm and everything, so I can depend on her when I move. Really hope I get a room next to her over the summer!

Never in my life has a month felt like eternity to me.. Not until now. But I was thinking that its about time I went through a 'tough time' by myself.. I mean, I consider myself extremely blessed for having God put people like Gen and Jeri in my life to welcome me when I first came, and a wonderful neighbour like Lingchi to give me someone to hang around with. Because of them and the other fantastic people I met in Glenn, my transition to life here was very smooth-sailing. Others weren't so fortunate, like Lingchi. Poor thing came here by herself, find her way to La Trobe from the airport and move into Glenn by herself. And she had to make friends pretty much from scratch, while I was introduced by those whom I already knew. So yeah I think its high time I go through some loneliness and solitude.

Anyway moving on, school is still stressful and annoying.. And I think I'm getting quite sick and tired of it. Which I don't think is a good thing, because I still have a month left before I go home for the Christmas break. And then there's next January when I gotta come back for my exams. So I pretty much have quite some time left in the dear FSDP course, and I gotta strengthen myself up if I want to survive. School today kinda sucked though. Got really pissed off at some classmates of mine who apparently don't really know when to draw the line between teasing and hurting someone. Basically when one of them found out that he beat me in our last Biology test (he got 100 farking percent), he was like damn happy and told everyone.. And he kept saying to me that he had told me he'd get full marks and beat me. I wasn't feeling happy already, so I just "Mm-ed" and "Ahh-ed" my way through, but he kept going on and on and told my other classmates who, to no help at all, started shouting that he got full marks to me. Which of course, totally ticked me off. So in the end I just ignored them. Then my other friend realised that she got higher than me for our math test and openly expressed her happiness upon beating me. And yeah, that got me even more annoyed. So now you kinda see why I'm starting to get tired of school? Because its only making me feel stupider and more unimportant than I already feel. Ah stuff it. No point brooding too long.

Time I bucked up and show those shits who they're trifling with.

Thank God my English teacher approved my oral presentation topic on rock climbing! I somehow managed to turn it into an academic topic haha. So anyway Kico and I are going to present on "Rock climbing: Boon to Mankind, Bane to Environment?" Cleverly thought of by me. :D Dear Kico helped with the research and I typed out the report.. And I must say, I'm quite proud of the outcome! Pity the report doesn't really count for much in the grading, most weightage is on the presentation itself. But at least the foundation is there for us. :D Hopefully we'll be able to make a great presentation and impress our teacher. Yea, rock climbing FTW! (:

Went to Simpson Lawn last night to play with some left over sparklers from Lingchi's birthday.. Had much fun taking photos and fooling around. (: Like I said just now, I'm really gonna miss everyone. ):


Hahah ah bengs

How I love them so! <3

Mandatory jump shots

Shindu-adugennn!



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