Its my first morning back in Melbourne, and I just woke up from a record-breaking 14 hour sleep. NAISE.

Coming over this time I thought would be easier for me, that I won't miss everyone as much, but I guess I was wrong. I think its probably because I'm all alone now, without my Glenn friends to distract me. So yeah, the whole flight back I was pretty down and sian, hardly slept and hardly ate anything. Flight landed, went through the motion of clearing customs and getting my luggage. Found my taxi, took off for 'home'. Got home, lugged up my bloody heavy bags, dumped everything in my room and sat on my bed. Then left to get groceries. TIRED SIA.

It feels even more surreal to be back here in Melbourne after just a three week break in Singapore.. And kept going through my head was this thought of, "Sian, I'm back here again." Which is pretty true. But it made me realise how I saw my time here in Melbourne. I guess I was actually pretty strong last year, because I'm actually feeling more down and affected now than last year. OMIGOD, talk about slow reaction.

I know I have to continue to be strong and stop mulling over it, but y'know sometimes you just feel like not doing anything, curl up on your bed and sleep the feeling off? That's exactly how I feel now, although I kinda just got out of bed (lol). I have absolutely no heart to start mugging for my exams that start in five freaking days' time (though I know I really should). But I keep telling myself to be strong for the next week plus, get the damned exams over and then I can hide from the world if I still feel like it.

Since when did Rachietan hide from the world? Beats me. But thats what I want to do now. Hide from the world and pretend I'm back in sunny Singapore with my family and friends.

That's all I have for now. Gotta really be serious about mugging. Maybe I'll post later at night, about my time in Singapore since I totally neglected my blog then.

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Looks like its back to haunting Facebook, MSN and Skype for me, and checking my blog for you. Haha.